But yes of course I do want to. I want you. I’m telling you that. Or screaming. Sorry if you can not hear it though, because I insist on screaming it inside my head.
What if I dared to throw myself headlong into everything.
Would it be daring, and right or just downright crazy stupid? How the hell do I know? Can you give me the answer?
Yes, I know. And now I know even more. What do I do? Well I write down a far too long, very accurate, a little half-repelling story about my fears and give you no feedback at all even though my whole essence is pounding and screaming inside – I WANT YOU! I WANT IT ALL! I WANT TO! I feel, of course, just like you!
But do I let you know? – No. So I continue to sit here and lie to myself, I think. Wish you could read my mind instead. For this clam will not open!